NaNoWriMo 2015

In an attempt to get the creative juices flowing, and because my husband suggested it would be a good idea, I’m going to give NaNo a go this year. “What’s NaNo?” you ask. Well, November is National Novel Writing Month, NaNoWriMo, during which thousands of writers throw sanity out the window and try write a 50,000 novel. Check out

While I do hope to hold onto what fragments of sanity I have left, I also hope to get 50,000 words down. I’ve done it before, and I do have an idea, bits and pieces of a world, and at least one fleshed out character, which is all more than I’ve gone into NaNo with before, so I’m feeling somewhat prepared.

Until tomorrow morning, and I try to write the first words. Then it may all go out the window. Or I may throw myself out the window. Defenestration or write a novel… tricky choice.

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Posted by on 31/10/2015 in Uncategorized


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It’s literally been more than a year since I last posted. And, boy, what a year it’s been.

So far 2015 is chalking up to be my worst year ever, in fact, I think it already has that title, but there’s room for it to go either way. My husband is officially jobless at the end of day tomorrow, and with nothing new secured yet, there’s a possibility things could get much, much worse.

Since April I’ve lost my creative mojo. I’ve not written anything, and I’m feeling as far from being a writer as those normal non-writerly people must feel–except I still hang out with writers, and people ask me what I’m working on, and my current response is, “a baby blanket,” because I’m doing a huge favour for a friend (and that’s crochet, not writing, in case you were wondering how you write a baby blanket).

What happened in April to trigger this. Well, that’s the créme de la créme of my shit year. I ended up in hospital because my stupid brain decided reality wasn’t good enough for it, and it went walk about in insanity for a few weeks. An event that has totally fractured my belief in myself and trust in my brain, and even though everyone else is getting on with their lives as if it was all a bad dream, I’m still reeling from what happened.

How’s your year going?

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Posted by on 05/10/2015 in Uncategorized


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The Still Rippling Effects of Snowden’s Pronouncements

This is a somewhat political post, but don’t rush away yet 😉

A few weeks ago, here in Chch we had the Word festival. One of the events I got to go to was an interview with Luke Harding. If you don’t know who that is, well, I’ll admit neither did I until I went. He is, I discovered, a world renowned journalist who works for The Guardian. He wrote a book, “The Snowden Files,” about Snowden, the material, and obviously the GCSB and NSA. Here is some fun reading about the writing of the book.

Anyway, I generally live under my rock. I didn’t really know anything about Snowden, or the implications of what he was telling us. Hubby knows, he reads the internet as a hobby, so I’d kinda gotten the gist along the way that everything we do is scooped up by whoever and privacy on the internet is a load of BS.

Since listening to Harding, and then reading his Snowden book, I’m much more aware of what’s going on. But I still had a ‘whatever’ attitude. That’s America and Britain, not really us, and our Government wouldn’t be involved. I didn’t take any of it particularly to heart.

Being election time, it’s the perfect time for people to start pointing out what’s really going on in our country, although then of course it generally finishes with, “that’s why you need to vote for us!”

However, in came some internationals to shake things up this year. They don’t care who we vote for. They don’t care if we want to turn a blind eye. They weren’t getting paid to talk to us. They just want us to know the truth.

I listened to most of the “A Moment of Truth” talks. I was impressed by Glenn Greenwald, stunned by Snowden, and even surprised by Assange (then I stopped watching. I don’t care for the “Internet Mana” party, and I didn’t want to listen to Dotcom).

I realised throughout this, that it’s not about the fact that we’re all having our privacy invaded. Nor even the fact that we’re being lied to about it. It’s more that our Government is able to, and getting away with, passing bills that make spying on us legal, and still insisting that’s not what the new law says. And I was startled to find that they’re trying to push through another bill that sounds like it’s going to do more harm than good but the people don’t get a say in it. To the extent that you won’t see anything about it on the news sites. We’re not even informed.

We shouldn’t have to rely on Facebook and hearsay to find out what our Government is getting up to behind closed doors. We’re meant to be a democracy. We’re meant to be lead by the people for the people.

I’m sure I can be accused of being naïve, or foolish for thinking it could be other than it is, and definitely both of those for assuming that’s the way it was. But at least now I’m being more aware. What is our Government up to? What are they telling us, and why? And what are they not telling us?

If you are a kiwi reading this, I really encourage you to watch “A Moment of Truth“. Put aside your judgements and beliefs, and just listen to these three guys. The message isn’t so much, “you’re being spied on.” It’s a challenge to ask yourself, “is this what you want?”

NB: the first 20 mins is literally nothing. Then it starts with about 10mins of welcoming. I stopped watching about an hour and a half in.

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Posted by on 19/09/2014 in Real World Stuff


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Balance: writing and life

I struggle to find time to write lately. Now that I’ve re-found my passion for writing, that’s a problem. It’s not so easy to justify stealing time to write when Child is harping, “Mum, I’m still hungry.” and study books are sitting there silently singing out at me to ensure I feel guilt for ignoring them. In the evenings I dislike sinking so far into my worlds that I don’t hear hubby’s attempts at conversation. But while Child is at kindy I am overwhelmed by social engagements.

This is why I’m in awe at those like J. C. Hart, who writes, gets published!, and studies, mothers, and fulfills household duties, etc.

For me something (or more than one something) gets dumped. Normally what suffers most is housework, but that makes me moody cos everything ends up a mess and I can’t make a cup of tea without fighting for bench space. If I keep up with housework, then study time gets cut. If I focus on study, then the writing falls through the cracks.

No matter the attempt, the end result is always guilt.

Balance is something I’ve always struggled with. What’s the answer? Is there even an answer?

So often, ‘give up trying to write’, ends up being my answer, but then I’m always dissatisfied. No matter how much a suppress it, the desire is still there. Just let me sit down and lose myself in words! I guess that’s what makes me a writer even in those months I don’t manage to write anything.

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Posted by on 12/09/2014 in Writing


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Short Life Update

If you’re one of those readers I like to imagine I have, that reads my blog but doesn’t keep up with my antics through any other avenue, then the fact that I’m now studying a diploma of counselling may come as a bit of a surprise.

But then I haven’t blogged in forever, so there’s a lot you’ve missed thanks to me falling back into the pit of what’s this life thing all about then, and what’s the point of it all?

In there I was made redundant. I lost direction. I slumped. I was finally forced to deal with the redundancy, and then I finally understood what I wanted to do with myself.

There was a lot of serendipity going on when I discovered that I wanted to be a counsellor. Hey, look over here at this campus that just opened at the other end of your suburb this year, you can study part-time, by correspondence, at your own pace, and StudyLink will even join the party to help out financially (as long as you pay it back later, of course, don’t get too excited).

So far I’ve completed 1 unit (passed with 86%!), and had 2 units cross-credited thanks to a uni paper I did. Win! The next unit is ‘due’ in 2 weeks so I can get the first practical assessment over and done with at the start of October.

Through various mental reprogramming techniques I’ve discovered, I’m going to dare to say I’m done with mental illness. Said techniques include EFT, but we’ve added a few other fun techniques to the process, and we (B~ and I) have kind of stream lined the process. I’m considering writing up the process we use and putting it on here somewhere. Then maybe others can have astounding results too.

Around study I’m also trying to get some writing stuff done. I want to re-publish Evacuation (I got stuck on the cover thing and never really went back), and I have another novella I’ve just started. It’s all good and exciting 😀

That’s how I am. How are you?

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Posted by on 05/09/2014 in General